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[prillalar]

I posted earlier (if cryptically) about the work stress I'm experiencing right now. It's just getting worse and I've come to the realization that I have to start implementing an escape plan ASAP.

God, I hate this. I hate the thought of spending my weekend working on my résumé and my website and my contacts. (Especially when I want to spend it writing fic and reading books.) I hate that the Best Job Ever is now something I have to flee, not because the job itself sucks, but because the company is going under.

And I hate that things are going to change. I don't like change.

I'm in the position right now where I could either find a new job -- and I think I should be able to, at least I hope so -- or try to make a go of it with contract work. I'm a web developer/programmer and so it's the kind of thing that's easy to do from home, if you can get the work in.

I don't have kids or a mortgage and I've already paid off my student loans. I have a long-term partner who is employed. We're not going to starve or even have to cut off our cable internet. It's not the end of the world.

But that doesn't mean I don't hate it.

I need a pint of stout and a sappy InuKai.

Comments

[leviosa8.livejournal.com]

Change is always scary, but it is sometimes for the better. Since, as you say, have some aspects of your life covered, you should balance your overall feelings and then decide with conviction. I am sorry you have to consider quitting something you liked.

[prillalar]

Thanks, honey. There's not much choice -- at this point, it's either quit or wait for the company to fail. But I have some good contacts so I think it will be fine.