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2025-07-27 08:23 am

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Archive of Our Own: [archiveofourown.org profile] prillalar - slowly getting the back catalogue up
My fic site is offline (and will remain so) but if you're looking for older fic that's not up on AO3, you can find it on the Way Back Machine:
web.archive.org/web/20101126140202/http://prillalar.com/fic/
For Prince of Tennis fic that's not in either place yet: Index of my Prince of Tennis Fanfiction

Transformative Works Policy
You do NOT need to ask my permission to remix, podfic, translate, create art for or create secondary fanwork of any fanwork I have posted. You should include a link back to my work, and feel free to share the link to your work with me (only if you want to) - I'd love to see it.
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2017-05-21 08:58 am

So, I may have overcommitted myself...

Fandom is filling up my free time and I'm not always very good at managing that. I'm going to try to prioritize DW over Tumblr, since I'd rather engage with people here (she says after having not been around for two weeks) than scroll through art, however pretty, and inspirational quotes. But I feel like this always happens when I get writing; I keep my head down and then more time than I thought goes by and then all the posts I want to comment on are a week old. Sorry, friends. :(

I signed up for [community profile] rareshipsonice and I'm excited to get started on that! I'm hoping to write some treats as well. Sooooo many good pairings. (Here's my Dear Creator letter.)

And SASO -- Sports Anime Shipping Olympics -- has begun! I'm on Team OtaYuri this year. Once the bonus prompt/fill rounds start, I hope to be writing a bit faster than I have been recently and in a lot more fandoms!
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2017-03-11 04:29 pm

randomosity

- I have finally finished the horrifying first draft of the last Chris/Georgi story! It's twice as long as I hoped it would be and it's probably going to take 6 - 10 hours of editing just to get it beta-worthy but it exists and that's enough for today. ♥

- Next on the list are two non-YOI exchange stories, one for Harumeku, a Prince of Tennis (my forever fandom) exchange, and the other for the Inter-High Exchange (IHX), sports manga/anime in general, which did include YOI but I decided not to offer it because I have enough of a list of my own to work through before SASO starts up again. My beta did tell me I was burnt out and should relax by writing some gratuitous porn, though, so some more YOI will probably sneak in there.

- I recently started playing in a new Pathfinder campaign and it's so great being back to it. Tabletop RPG is my secondary hobby, after fandom, and Pathfinder is my favourite system. (If you're not familiar, the base rules are essentially a fork of D&D 3.5.) My group is experienced and tactically smart but also really into the roleplaying aspect so it's usually the most fun night of the week!

- We're also back to playing more Marvel: Legendary, which is a co-operative deck-building game that's pretty much the most fun non-RPG table game I've ever played. (We had to sleeve all the cards, though, because sometimes when you draw Doctor Octopus and give his card a little kiss, you might get lipgloss on him.) I've actually changed my opinions on some of the characters based on their cards sets. I used to think Namor the Submariner was a pompous asshole but now I think he's a really hot pompous asshole. (Who should totally get back with Sue. Which would free up Reed for Victor.)

- I hope you are all having a great weekend! ♥♥♥ Doing anything fun?
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2017-03-09 07:46 am

skip 120

So catching up on DW this morning took me to skip 120! I've been writing so much I've just had to keep my head down. (Okay, yapping on Twitter as much as usual.)

I've been trying, trying so hard to knock down the draft of the final Chris/Georgi story and it's still not done because I keep having to stop and work on exchange stories. Also, even though I know what I have to write, I just can't seem to get to the end of it -- it's like when you have a big bowl of salad and no matter how much you eat the bowl never seems to get any emptier. But I have a day and a bit free before I have to start the next exchange story so maybe this time.

This will be the terrible first draft, mind you. Which is pretty much a bag of cold mashed potatoes that I will then have to bash and kick until it's moulded into a breathtaking marble statue. (Part of the process will be removing metaphors like that one.)

Because I find this story so difficult to write, my brain keeps trying to distract me with ideas for less taxing side stories, some of which are useful and good and on the list for later. But then there was this one:

Chris & Georgi Go To Monte Carlo

Chris: *slaps Georgi's ass* Dress up nice because you'll be on the arm of a high roller tonight.

Georgi: The Russian is the high roller, you Swiss geek. You're my arm candy tonight.

Chris: Well, I am prettier than you. But I'm the one who has a system!

Georgi: See? I got some temporary tattoos to look tough!

Chris: If Victor were here, he'd let me be the high roller.

Georgi: If Victor were here, you'd both be my arm candy.

Chris: Could you say that again but into my phone this time?

Georgi: *looks justifiably suspicious*

Chris: I want to record you agreeing to a threesome with Victor.

Georgi: *rolls his eyes* Fine, high roller. But if your system works, I'm expecting some diamonds.

Spoiler: Chris's system did not work.
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2017-02-18 09:03 am

rambles

I'm in that stage with my WIP where it's not so much a WIP as a jumble of notes and despair. The problem with "just write X words per day" is that it doesn't really leave time for this part of the process: the ruminating and complaining and taking walks and creating the fucking outline, which, for character-driven stories, is so difficult for me.

Do you have a method for kick-starting that process? Just barf some words onto the page and see how that goes? Force a friend to listen to you ramble? Outline the emotional beats you need to hit and then fit the canon/made-up scenes around that? (That's not a bad idea, actually.) Procrastinate on social media?

In other news, I haven't been reading a lot of fic in YOI so far -- when I'm writing a lot in a fandom, especially when it's new, I tend not to read very much -- but I read almost everything in Choc Box (except some threesomes and a crossover) and it was great! So one of my goals is to do a bunch more reading, especially for rare pairs. But I may need to wait until this WIP is drafted to jump on that.

Another goal is to write something for YOI that's more plot-driven and light-hearted. YOI came along at a time when I was longing for a fandom with adult characters with sexual histories that I could write dirty porn about without having to age characters up first. (Not aging up for purity reasons; more wanting the characters to be sexually experienced.) And I have SO enjoyed that! But it's pretty far from my usual sports-series fare. (That said, the Idea Jar is far too full of stuff that makes me go, "Ooh, everyone is going to hate that but I'm going to write it anyhow.")

How do you pick which ideas to write (or draw or vid or ...)?

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2017-02-05 10:16 am

Res Gestae

✔ Finished & uploaded Choc Box fic(s)

✔ Caught up on AO3 comments

✔ Avoided dropping all my YOI & tenipuri WIPs to write ACCA porn (believe me, this is an actual accomplishment, at least this week!)

✔ Started making notes on the next Chris/Georgi instalment; should be the end of the narrative arc and I'm going to be both sad and relieved to be done. I've had the ending in mind for a while but now I have to work out how to get them there. Also, do more canon review. Chris at the GPF really kills me, I feel so sad for him. And when Victor says he's returning to skating, I can't help but feel deeply sad for Georgi as well. *kicks Victor in the shin*

✔ Started thinking maybe my potential exchange commitments for February and March are a bit much! But I really want to do all of them, so I don't know. "Moderation in all things" is a lesson I've never been able to internalize.


Res Not So Gestae

𝙓 Did not catch up on LJ/DW comments, but soon, soon.

𝙓 Various life chores still undone, but that's chronic.

𝙓 Gave up on a Choc Box treat I hoped to write based on realizing I needed to get on with other WIPs.

𝙓 Did not get any back catalogue AO3 archiving done. To be honest, it's mostly that I don't want to spam people who have subbed to my updates with X-Files fic I wrote 18 years ago. If there's a way to add back-dated fic without triggering update emails, I would love to know what it is.


In other news, I hope you're all having/have had a great weekend!
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2017-02-03 04:56 pm

My social media identities

Dreamwidth: I'm a fancy writer. Here are some important details about my process.

Twitter: I want to punch a unicorn.
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2017-01-30 06:50 am

January writing

Just did my check-in for [community profile] getyourwordsout: 16,039 words for the year to date, which is more than double what I need for my goal. (I'm trying to front-load my total to allow for slumps later on.) That's a lot of words for me, so I'm feeling pretty good!

One of my goals for writing this year is to be more wordy. That's a bit odd -- I think people are usually striving for the opposite -- but I generally have a fairly cut-down prose style that can be, well, inaccessible. A beta charitably told me it "requires close reading". I'm trying to "tell" a little more than I do now, at least most of the time.

I also feel like a lot of my work in the last six months has been fairly downbeat. Not sad, necessarily, but with a more sober mood. I'm trying to get back to a breezier mood and plottier stories for a while.

What are your current writing goals? Wordcount? Stylistic?
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2017-01-08 07:28 am

Fandom Snowflake: Day 7 & 8

Day 7: In your own space, create a fanwork.

I don't have a completed fanwork to post but since I spent all day yesterday working on a WIP (and that's on the docket for today too), I'm going to call this one complete.

From Twitter: ✍️ Weekend Goal: barf out the shitty first draft of my WIP no matter how much my personal life suffers.

Day 8: In your own space, make a list of at least 3 things that you like about yourself.

Sure, let's go:

- I'm funny. In person and in my writing, when I mean to be. But now that I'm on the spot, I can't think of anything funny to say.

- I'm scary. I have what I call the "fuck-off field" which usually keeps people from randomly talking to me or sitting next to me if there's a seat free somewhere else. Since I'm also an introvert, that's just fine with me! (I have noticed it waning as I age so I'm trying to improve my resting murder-face this year.)

- I dance at my standing desk while I work. I currently have my own office, so that works out well. Usually it's happy dancing but I have noticed some angry dancing from time to time.

And that's enough self-aggrandizement for this morning!
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2017-01-06 07:15 am

Fandom Snowflake: Day 6

[community profile] snowflake_challenge Day 6: Create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive, something you've wanted but were afraid to ask for - a fannish wish-list of sorts.

This is difficult for me because I am not an asker. And I'm definitely a must-do-everything-myself-er. (It was years before I was comfortable even asking my partner to make me a cup of tea.)

* Invitation from an artist to collaborate on a comic or doujinshi. (I can't imagine having the nerve to ask an artist this.)

* Concrit on my writing. It's not something I would ever offer unsolicited to anyone but would love to have so I can see where I need to improve. But it's a big time commitment to ask for and also makes me feel like I'm being, I don't know, presumptuous, maybe?

* Art of Mitsui from Slam Dunk as a hockey player -- in a hockey sweater, with proper hockey hair, and all his missing teeth showing. (Maybe with Kogure in the background as his manager!) I've been daydreaming this one for years!

* For people to feel free to make requests of me. :)

I also put up a Transformative Works statement on my AO3 profile and my LJ/DW sticky posts; should have done that ages ago.
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2017-01-05 06:02 am

Fandom Snowflake: Day 4

Day 4: Comment to someone you haven't ever interacted with before or introduce yourself to someone you've interacted with and friend/follow them.

I did this on the friending meme! And I still have a couple pages there to go through looking for more shared-interest folks. (Especially Yuri!!! on Ice right now.)

Welcome to everyone who added me! I definitely intended to add everyone back and I'm going to take a look at that later on to make sure. (I also have some people who I didn't sub back to ages ago because I was following them on LJ so I want to get that sorted too.) I mainly subscribed without giving access because I almost never make friends-locked posts.

It's always okay to drop me again if my content is not to your liking, no explanations necessary. Unless you say otherwise, I'll assume it's not personal and you'd still have a drink with me if we met at a con.

I've been in fandom since the X-Files days and I've been in Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Buffy & Angel, Harry Potter, and other fandoms before dropping into Prince of Tennis (my forever fandom) and discovering my sports series soul. Current sports series are Haikyuu!! and All Out!! and I'm looking forward to the next YowaPeda series. (I also love tokusatsu, especially older Kamen Rider series, but haven't connected to many people over that.)

Over the long term, I'm hoping to post a couple times a week about my fandom interests. Typically, that's sports anime/manga with a bit of Star Wars, Doctor Who, etc. I, like many, many others, am currently obsessed with Yuri!!! on Ice so that will feature prominently, I'm sure, at least for a while.

If you want to chat on Twitter ([twitter.com profile] prillalar ) too, that's cool! I haven't been adding people on Tumblr because I'm trying to cut my time there down.
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2017-01-03 01:46 pm

Fandom Snowflake: Day 3

In your own space, set some goals for the coming year.

- Write more fic and at least some meta. I've committed to [community profile] getyourwordsout  for 75K this year, so I'm hoping to meet or surpass that.

- Post and interact more on DW (and still LJ). I've reconnected to some old friends and met new people through the multi-fandom friending meme and I'm excited to get to know everyone better!

- Not let fandom take over my whole life. I tend to be a bit obsessive with my hobbies and while I understand moderation in all things intellectually, it's hard to internalize.

- Seriously think about whether I need to make a career change.
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2017-01-02 06:20 pm

Fandom Snowflake: Day 2

Going to try to do [community profile] snowflake_challenge this year! I didn't hop on it in time to do day 1, maybe I'll catch up later.

In your own space, share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life. Something that impacted on your consciousness in a way that left its mark on your soul.

The X-Files. It's a show that changed the way we do television. It gave me a love of media about the supernatural and conspiracy theories. It started a local social event that's been going on for nearly 20 years.

And one day, I thought: I bet there's fanfiction for this show.

I'd read a little fic previously, for ST:TNG, but just randomly. With TXF, I got onto Usenet, mailing lists, starting writing my own fic, and made friendships that I have to this day.

The X-Files gave me fandom. And I'm thankful every day.
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2016-12-28 10:23 am

End of Year Fandom Meme 2016

1. Your main fandom of the year?

Let's just say "sports manga/anime". Prince of Tennis, Haikyuu!! and Yuri!!! on ICE dominated.

2. Your favourite film watched this year?

Ghostbusters 2016. Oh. My. God. So smart and funny and fun. Also I got Holtzmanned pretty hard! (Like you didn't.)

3. Your favourite book read this year?

The Three-Body Problem by Liu Cixin. Far and away my favourite. I love first-contact novels and this was such a fresh take! I wasn't as enamoured of The Dark Forest but I'm looking forward to reading Death's End in 2017.

4. Your favourite TV show of the year?

Yuri!!! on ICE hands-down. Just. Was not expecting this level of awesomeness. Every time I re-watch I see new things and flail harder. (Honourable mention to Brooklyn 99 continuing to be amazing!)

5. Your favourite online fandom community of the year?

Twitter. I still miss the slower pace and threaded comments of LJ, but Twitter is where I do my fannish chatting these days. Come find me (@prillalar) there so I can chat with you too! I'm @prillalar on Tumblr too. (Um, the queue of Georgi birthday fanart reblogs will end eventually.) I poked at Imzy a bit but it didn't stick, at least not yet. (If you're reading this on Tumblr, I'm prillalar on Dreamwidth. Yay branding!)

I do want to engage a bit more on DW in 2017 so I'll try to post more often and hopefully find others who are still posting. I'm thinking fannish stuff on DW and Tumblr, life stuff probably just on DW.

6. Your best new fandom discovery of the year?

It's a toss-up between the Sports Anime Shipping Olympics (aka SASO) and Yuri!!! on ICE but I'm going to go with SASO because that's where I met a bunch of the people I've been flailing about YOI with. ♥

That said, the twelve weeks when YOI was airing was the most intense fannish experience of my LIFE and I've been around for a while! I'm hoping to ride that wave all the way to season 2.

7. Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year?

Cheer Danshi. (So disappointed, I can't be bothered to look up the correct number and placement of exclamation marks in the title.) Men's college cheerleading, should be awesome, right? I foolishly got my hopes up. It was cute but ultimately uninteresting to me and I haven't finished it. (Though I do plan to.) No fandom sprung up around it that I could find either.

8. Your TV boyfriend of the year?

Georgi Popovich. I love sad sack side characters. I love self-aggrandizing side characters. I love evil witches. I love Georgi. [witch makeup heart hands emoji]

9. Your TV girlfriend of the year?

Can we go with movie girlfriend and say HOLTZMANN OMG 4EVA? Otherwise, Saeko-neesan from Haikyuu!! (I lost my heart when she was drifting!).

10. Your biggest squee moment of the year?

YOI episode 10. Especially the end. But especially the glove. But especially all of it. But especially the end. This episode caused me to end up sitting on the floor of my office the next day, because I couldn't stand up due to emotion, listening to Shut Up and Dance and crying.

11. The most missed of your old fandoms?

I would have thought this would be Prince of Tennis but I didn't have to miss it because it's still there! Not to the same extent as the days of yore but I have a bunch of friends who only just got into it and a bunch of friends who are still into it and a bunch who used to be and still tolerate my fannishness. I only wish there was a way to make it more centralized, like it used to be on LJ.

12. The fandom you haven’t tried yet, but want to?

I'm not sure if this exactly qualifies, but I'm hoping Yowamushi Pedal S3 will bring me more into the fandom proper.

13. Your biggest fan anticipations for the New Year?

Making new friends and reconnecting with old friends. I know I'm a bit standoffish and can be hard to get to know. And also, since I'm a fair bit older than a lot of people I meet in fandom these days, I don't always want to take the initiative in case I seem creepy. But I've got to know some really great people recently and I know I'll get to know more. :)

Writing more fic. YOI, tenipuri, HQ. Slam Dunk. Star Wars. Finish the Christophe/Georgi series. Start that Polar Bear Café Shirokuma/Grizzly story I keep thinking about. Write more and more and more Inui/Kaidoh.

2016 was the year I came back to fandom after several years hiatus. It's one of the best things I've ever done. I love you all so much.
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2016-09-25 12:42 pm

Whatever, I'll do what I want

I sometimes feel embarrassed about how long I've been in Prince of Tennis fandom but I've been trying to get over that feeling. Because it doesn't look like I'll be over tenipuri any time soon.

When I first started watching the anime, lo! these many years ago, I posted in my LJ: I don't anticipate that I'll be reading in this fandom a lot or that I'll be writing in it at all (or even posting about it much in LJ). Two weeks later, I posted my first InuKai fic. <3 (And I'm at over 100 stories now and still grinding them out.)

After that, I instituted a system where if I wrote a story in another fandom first, I was allowed to write a tenipuri story too, since tenipuri was all I wanted to write. I'm back to that rule now. :) (Trying to write more Haikyuu!! especially; I love those characters a lot.)

It's not always fruitful to analyse why you like something but I can say that the sprawling cracked-out canon with the adorable and over-the-top characters really, really appeals to me. Like Doctor Who & Star Wars -- there's so much to chew over and discuss and try to make fit. I consume and enjoy media that's excellent, with tight plots and detailed relationships, but it only rarely makes me want to talk and write and flail like this glorious mess of a not-actually-a-sports-series does.

So, when I want to post about tenipuri, I'm going to post about tenipuri and fuck being embarrassed about it. When I want to write PoT fic, I'm going to write PoT fic. When I want to flail about the Chinese drama, I'm going to flail about the Chinese drama.

Please be kind. :)
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2016-09-15 07:57 pm

Can't stop, won't stop

I'm experiencing that situation where you feel like you ought to be creating fanworks constantly, no downtime. I've often said fandom is like an unpaid part-time job but sometimes it's more like school and the guilt over homework never ends. Self-imposed guilt, though; nobody is pressuring me.

I'm a little brain tired still after RR245 -- that took me a month to write and was the most difficult thing I've worked on this year so far. But was I was so excited when I got to finally write the happy ending! And I still have Pluto on my own phone's lock screen. <3

Next up I want to write some Tsukishima/Yamaguchi (Haikyuu!!) but I'm weirdly intimidated by them. I have a cute and funny premise but I'm afraid they'll make it sad. Maybe deep down I really just want Yams to stare at Tsukki and Tsukki to stare at nothing at all, angsting their high school angst, never getting closer than they already are.

Maybe some DaiSuga would go better right now. Maybe I should just read a book and drink some tea. :)
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2016-08-24 03:11 pm

On and on and on

SASO is nearly over and I've finished all my responsibilities. I had a really great time, working with my team (you are all ⭐️s) and meeting new people and writing a bit of tenipuri and Haikyuu!! fic.

I certainly wasn't very productive in comparison to a lot of participants! But over 3 months I did write 14 short stories in 3 fandoms, did 2 short podfics for the remix round, and worked on our team projects.

Also this year, I wrote for one tenipuri exchange and one multifandom exchange. Feels like a lot, at least for me. I think it helped a lot with getting back into writing and into a fandom headspace.

I've been slowly getting my back catalogue of fic up on AO3 but there is still so much to go. I haven't been backdating it, just putting the year written into the notes. But I do need to start getting the older stuff up too. (Like the X-Files stuff from, oh my god, last century.) I feel pretty cringe-y about some of it so I will probably backdate most of that and silently apologize to anyone who's subscribed to me.

I've been up on Twitter quite a bit -- I feel like it's filled at least part of what I've been missing about LJ fandom. And I'm just now getting going on Tumblr, which has been okay. Still working out how I want to use it. Mostly posting about tenipuri & HQ and reblogging mostly sports anime stuff. Might do some cross-posting here, but not sure yet. Oh, and poking around Izzy too. (LMK if you need an invite.)

Trying to plan my fanworks schedule for the fall. I've got a few WIPs in the hopper, which is a nice feeling. :) Thinking about setting up a tenipuri side blog for revisiting my episode recaps.

I wasn't going to do any more exchanges this year but then I saw [community profile] relationshipping, which is an incest exchange and very rtmi. So, still not sure, but I'm pretty tempted. Maybe I'll wait and see if someone else nominates Donny & Marie.

This has been long and boring! I'll try for some more fannish content next time. :)
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2016-07-27 10:37 am

Reconnecting

So, after about 4 years gafiation I've been getting back into fandom stuff. It turns out I'm still really, really into Prince of Tennis. And now also into Haikyuu!! (And a ton of other stuff, but these are the big two.)

I'm trying to get more content for these series into my life, so if you have any recs for people/blogs I should follow on Twitter, Tumblr, and (wishful thinking) LJ/DW, please let me know! Or if there's a Sekrit New Platform everybody's moving to.

I've got to know some cool new people via SASO but I'm hoping to meet even more. And maybe find some people that I fell out of touch with. If you tried to get in touch with me during my offline time and I didn't get back to you, I'm sorry. I was fine, just burnt out, I guess. No worries if you'd rather not hang out any more.

My contact info for all these services is here: https://prillalar.dreamwidth.org/511604.html
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2016-06-09 02:12 pm

(no subject)

Surfacing after a day and a half of migraine. I feel like I get them a lot less often than I used to but they fuck me up so much more. I have a ton of writing and other brain work to do and all I can do is stare at the wall, even though the pain is gone. Well, I'm doing laundry in between stares. And I did get listen to audio books for about eighteen hours. :)

Was hoping to get two more fills done for SASO BR1, but alas. It was good to write some smaller, faster things, though. I feel like I'm getting back into the groove. I'm trying hard not to fall back to writing all tenipuri. But it's still just so much fun.

Finished the main Yowamushi Pedal anime (haven't watched the movie yet) and oh my heart! It was just so wonderful and gave me everything I wanted for the relationships and development and learning about cycling and all. So perfect I can't quite imagine writing about it, but I guess we'll see.

Gearing up for Euro2016! Supporting Spain again, hope my heart won't be broken. My wardrobe has mostly been reduced to black so I had to go out and buy a red and a yellow bandana. I don't have cable anymore, though, so it's going to be a challenge to find some way to stream.

As always, I like cheese. And you. ♥
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2011-01-26 10:00 am

Happy Birthday to Me!

It's my birthday again. I am pleased to be still alive. :) And pleased to link you to this year's birthday story, a short and sappy sweet InuKai: Backhand.

This year, I've made birthday greetings extra-easy on you. Simply fill out the poll and your social obligation is taken care of!

I love you all -- I'm so glad to still be in fandom and to know so many wonderful people. ♥ ♥ ♥

[Poll #1672808]